While fundraising, I rarely thought about money. Perhaps that sounds odd. In the morning, we would go out in teams, usually 5-6 sellers with a captain who drives us in a van to our destinations. He (I only had a female captain once) is also overall responsible for the product and the area. Each of us determines an external goal (the amount of money we want to make by the end of the day) and an internal goal (something on which to keep our mind focused and to help our hearts to grow). If we keep our mind centered on our internal goal- which may be: to learn God’s parental heart; to keep a good attitude/ grateful heart all day; to see God working- then the seller will make the external goal, even if the van breaks down, the captain is late or any other uncontrollable event transpires. It's pretty amazing -this law of the Universe.
If a person doesn’t make their goal, he/she can look back and analyze the day- what did I do that caused me to lose focus? In this way one’s fallen nature, one’s self-destructive habits, or how satan was able to invade through another person (i.e. someone who wants to talk to you for hours because they are lonely) becomes clear.
My goal was usually to love the people unconditionally throughout the day, to love them in place of God, greeting them as His long-lost son or daughter, treating them with as much love and respect for their original nature as I could. To reach that point I started off each day with intense prayer, even sometimes for an hour, because I had a lot of negative spirits around me.
One evening I entered a convenience store wanting to sell to the cashier. He was busy with a customer so I waited. A popular song came over the radio: ‘You are so Beautiful to Me’. I was thinking how this store keeper and customer were precious to God. Then I thought if these strangers were precious to God, then how so the people who are working for God every day; almost embarrassed that God might be singing to me through that song. I thought of all of the members choosing to walk this way and this song slowly emerged.
You are so Beautiful to Me
also called The Blessing Song
You are so beautiful to Me
I’ve waited so long for this day to be
I look into your eyes and find
The smile of My child- your heart is finally Mine
I’ve waited so long for this day for you to come back home;
I’ve waited so long just to call you My very own
And now the joy I feel to have you here relieves My pain;
Six thousand years will disappear and we shall start again.
I know it’s hard to realize
The preciousness and value of your lives
But though it’s difficult to see
Your daily tears and sweat are changing history
We’ve waited so long for this day when we could find our home
And now we’re here let’s never, ever again be alone
For by ourselves the peace and joy we seek will never be;
Only when we’re as one we’ll find true love eternally
You are so beautiful to Me
You are My hope to save humanity
With servant’s shoes and parent’s heart
The Kingdom of Love through you finally can start
You are so beautiful to Me.
I think this song was the first time I created an original tune; I don’t think it is very good.