Simple yet Profound Lesson
In Seattle, a dear brother gave me invaluable advice. He must have noticed that I was a bit low, more than a bit. I had spent many years being depressed and old habits-ways of thinking- die hard.
He suggested that I sit down with pencil and paper and write down every thought that was bothering me, point by point. He said, “Don’t stop until you‘ve written down everything. Even ask, Is that all?”
He continued, “When you are done, return to point #1 and ask God’s daughter what is her opinion about- or answer to- each point.”
I was a bit confused. “What do you mean God’s daughter?” He said, “Don't worry; just try it.”
I started off: #1. I’m so selfish!; #2. I never achieve my goal…..I continued on.
Because I was now a secretary, I suddenly became objective to the thoughts. I was not emotionally attached to them anymore. When it seemed as though I had reached the end, I dutifully asked, “Is that all?” There was a pause, then a voice responded vehemently, “You’ll never be God’s daughter and you deserve to die!” The last part was delivered screaming. That was surprising, I thought. It seemed to come out of nowhere.
Next I wondered about asking God’s daughter. Did he mean Ye Jin Nim or In Jin nim? So I asked, “What does God’s daughter think about point #1. I am so selfish?”
From within my own mind and being, a calm, clear voice came: “Yes, I am selfish, but I was much more selfish before I heard Divine Principle, and each day I am learning how to become more unselfish.”
The realization that the voice was my own voice- my true voice- was a shock; I began to cry. I am God’s daughter. Yes. Yes. I had heard it hundreds of times but it had stayed lodged in my intellect. Now it became real: I am God’s daughter. How amazing! I am God’s daughter and I have answers to each point and to all of those accusations. Calm, clear answers. Satan’s accusations always contain a bit of truth in them so it is hard to completely reject them. But behind his words, there is always an emotional component that is hateful and evil, intended to manipulate, attack and destroy us.
This simple exercise was profoundly liberating for me.
Precious Brothers and Sisters
The Madison Square Blessing, July 1, 1982, happened when I was working in Alaska. I took a plane back from NY and arrived in the Anchorage airport. Waiting for my ride, i began whistling a holy song. Then some members approached me, having recognized the tune. It was a heavenly encounter. They were living on Kodiak Island where the church had/has a large fish plant. Such precious brothers and sisters!
True Father was always thinking of ways to end hunger. He successfully experimented
with fish farming and fish powder which is high in protein and needs no refrigeration, thus it can be used to feed people in developing countries and war-torn areas. After WWII, many people in Korea were saved from starvation by peanut butter, which has the same properties- high in protein with no need of refrigeration. Thank you, dear brother, George Washington Carver!
The Unseen Rudder
That there are brothers and sisters all over the world, busy advancing God’s providence in every possible field of endeavor is a glorious knowledge to keep at the forefront of our mind/heart. Although we may be small in number, a huge ship is moved by a small rudder. This world is inevitably turning in the direction of World Peace and One World Family. I have high expectations for those doing research in the fields of science and technology, working on an instrument that will measure ions and another that will make the spirit world’s existence known. I am praying for your speedy victory!
Power of the Blessing
Shortly after the Blessing, I was out fundraising when Satan came to accuse me. A woman had declined to buy from me, then Satan hissed, ”You didn’t love that woman enough. If you had loved her more she would have bought.” I stopped in my tracks. “What a ridiculous accusation! And who are you to accuse me of not loving her? You do not love her at all! You don’t care about her well-being or her salvation. You don’t care about anyone! I married someone I did not even know for the sake of world peace. Get behind me, Satan!”
And he left!
In the chapter on Resurrection in Divine Principle, it explains that we on earth will inevitably be ‘attacked’ in two ways: one is internal (evil spirits tempting or accusing us in our own mind); the other is external-evil spirits using a physical person to tempt or accuse us. I spent many years dealing with both internal and external accusations. This was the first time I responded so aggressively and directly to Satan; I believe absolutely it was the power of the Blessing.
True Father said, “The purpose of the Messiah is to bring the Blessing to all mankind.” Amen! Aju!
Driving through miles and miles of lush mountainous Montana, I felt a pervading sadness. Although the scenery was remarkably beautiful, I could not shake the sorrow that permeated the landscape. The Native Americans in Spirit World must be wandering close to the earth. I wish that we could do something to comfort their hearts and dissipate their mournfulness.
In this state there are twelve major tribal nations living primarily on seven large reservations. About 80,000 people claim Native American ancestry here. In the late 1800s numerous battles were fought on this land between the US Calvary and the Native American people. With the explicit intention to destroy the Native American way of life, it is estimated that about 40 million buffalo were slaughtered.
True Father said that above America, there is a dark cloud filled with the angry spirits of Native Americans, Africans and Chinese people who were abused by the US government and its citizens. The rectification of this resentment and bitter anger lies in the hands of those of us now living.
(The twelve major tribes: Assiniboine, Blackfeet, Chippewa, Cree, Crow, Gros Ventre, Kootenai, Little Shell Chippewa, Northern Cheyenne, Pend d'Oreille, Salish and Sioux.)